Thoughts when watching U-tube

When I’m folding laundry or doing some other inside domestic task, I like to watch U tube gardeners and florists. Since I never sit and watch TV, I’ll take what I can get. Recommended for me is a video called “Why Do We Garden?”………………It was wonderful!!! The video was about why gardening is biblical. I would like to fact check some of the info but, the Lord knew I needed to hear that. Every Other day I question if starting a farm was the right move. Financially, so far it was not the right move. Nursing was far more lucrative, monetarily. However, farming is by far, for me so much more spiritually fulfilling. He spoke about how you can just feel called to do something. Farming is it for me. I have real fears about how the farm is going to provide for us. But God is keeping me calm enough to see the potential in the long game. It's the only logical answer. I will try link the video.

Psalm 46:10 is “ He says, Be still and know that I am God; I will be exhausted among the nations, I will be exhaulted in the earth” I have be still tattooed on my right wrist. I am an anxious, fidgety person by nature. I do not like to sit still. I do not like waiting. But, a point came right before I was baptized that I had to give my fears and anxieties to God. It's a reminder to myself to be still…. physically, mentally, and in so many areas of my life. It’s a reminder that none of us are in this life alone. We do not have to bear the load of life along. God is right there with us. He already has our problems solved. All we need to do is trust. Being still requires patience. Today my patience is being tested because I want to plant out the rest of my field of flowers. Well its #1 too wet, #2 kinda cold, and #3 we wont have our drip irrigation until Wednesday. But instead of being really upset, and I am a bit, I am trying to be patient. It's not the right time for me to plant. However, the things that went in late for me already are going to love this extended cool, damp weather. Maybe I wasn’t late after all. God I'd always on time. Even when we don't like waiting.

So, the major takeaway was…I’m not crazy. The peace I feel when I’m working on the farm is my soul being where it needs to be. Outside where we see some of his best work. His creatures are gifts to us to care for. A farm teaches your family to work, respect and have faith. Somehow the farm is my ministry. Which is why he provided me with a gloomy, cool day to finish this blog post. I often start them and leave them to marinade. This one was meant for today. He kept nudging me today in reminders. Remember, if we are able to “be still” just for a moment we often see where he is pointing us to go.